My First Anxiety Attack

This is the first post in a series written by my husband Jean-Marc about his anxiety disorder.

You can catch up on Jean-Marc’s story here:
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4

My First Anxiety Attack

On a hot July summer afternoon 3 years ago, I was sitting in our computer lab watching training videos. It was a normal day, nothing out of the ordinary had happened, and I was looking at the clock from time to time because, as it was Friday, I couldn’t wait to go home. I was drinking my 3rd iced cappuccino of the day, and I was feeling a little jittery. I was feeling a little short of breath, but I assumed it was just because I had been sitting a hot, windowless room for most of the afternoon. I had a constant aching pain in my chest, but I was just thinking that my mind was playing tricks on me… I mean, at 28, I was too young to be having a heart attack, right?

I left for the day at 5:30, like I normally did, feeling just a little light headed. I was thinking that I was tired and that I would relax when I got home. I blasted the Air Conditioner and started home, which would only be a 20 minute commute. When I was approximately 5 minutes away from home, I started feeling out of breath again. I kept trying to take a deep breath, but try as I might, I felt like I just couldn’t catch my breath. I started feeling afraid, what if I was having a heart attack. I got a searing chest pain, and I just jumped into panic mode. I completely lost control of my emotions. I pulled over, stood by my car for a second, and considered stopping traffic to get someone to call 911. I just then realized that I was about 5 minutes from home and talked myself into just driving the rest of the way and talking to my family.

I stumbled into the house and right away saw the look of concern on my wife’s face. I asked to be driven to the hospital right away because I taught I was having a heart attack. My wife saw right away what was happening, even though I had never before had a full blown panic attack, she could tell that I was stressed, and had lost control of my nervous system. I just couldn’t comprehend that my body was sending me fake signals. I thought I was having a heart attack and that I was going to die unless someone got me to the hospital right away. I hadn’t eaten anything since breakfast that day, so I quickly ate an apple at my wife’s request. Since I was still insisting to be brought to the hospital, my mother in law drove me, with my wife sitting in the back seat. I was having such a hard time breathing at that time that I had the window down, pretty much sticking my head out of the window. I felt myself starting to slip, and asked my wife to hold my hand one last time. I thought I was dying.

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  1. I am so sorry that you had to go through that! I have suffered from anxiety pretty much my whole life. It can happen at anytime, anywhere. It really does feel like you are having a heart attack. About 2 years ago was when my last one was. I went to the ER thinking that I had developed asthma and was worried that I would have an asthma attack at home with only the kids with me. Turned out anxiety creeped up on me again and disguised itself another way. I even had the ER do chest x-rays to make sure & everything was fine. I have learned different breathing techniques and can pretty much know what situations will cause it. Of course, they aren’t completely avoidable but it’s nice to know how/what causes them to come on so we can learn how to manage it a little better.

    • When you get to know your triggers it does become a lot easier because you know what to avoid and how to calm yourself down!

      Thanks for the comment!

  2. I went to the ER once and it turned out to be anxiety. I have learned to control my triggers but sometimes anxiety still creep in. I certainly understand your fear that something was wrong.

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